so its nice to be online. even though im not suppose to be on. i hate the lap top, but it gets me on the internet, so wateve. lol. uh-- today, yesterday the day before, tomorrow... are all going to be the worst. no doubt about that. no more fun for carli. and honestly, i kinda want to get my life straight. ahh. it sounds like im such a bad kid, someone who smokes all the time, or does drugs, or gets drunk, and fights... and uhm, im not, im none of those things at all. im just a girl who picks the crazy bad stuff to do... :( and i hate it </3! well...

i did get to go to the most beautiful place ever.. and i miss it there, for some reason when i look outside the windows at my house... all i see is burnt sagebrush, tree's that dont exist.. and well, houses... =( such a boring place.

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isnt that something worth missing? =)

Carson really is nothing special, but it's home...

I dont know. im really depressed and for me thats something i dont deal with very well. i dont like getting help from people, or having people see me cry. i dont like being needy, and i certainly dont like being anything other than happy. I like being the girl who makes everyone else's days better, even if she cant make her own.. i liked being that girl. and i want to be that girl. im sick of being like this, let me tell you.. </3 i guess its going to take awhile though...

Promise of a better day. Promise of a greater hope. Promise of a new tomorrow.

and it feels
like I'm at an
all time low

well everyone i hope you have a fantastic day.. <3 last day of spring break...

This weekend has been unbelievable!

so freaking fun=) hehe!

... where have you been julia!!!

dun dun dun

the office=) lmao!

my most favorite thing this weekend..or snooping outside on our cell phones!

yeah, i was at jesses for the last 2 nights, hella good times, chandler tried to take me off the latter i was sitting on, and we both just like fell off of it, into a bunch of ppl, HAHHAAHHAHAHA! oh man... and just like everyone i think had a good time, it was hella awesome!

haha!... i miss when i use to be this happy, seriously, i hope it lasts.. cause this is how it use to be, and i miss it!=)

woooeeeeeeeeee

yesterday sucked.

today was just the same

im not suppose to be happy, i figured that out.

i was suppose to go reds, with my DATE TAYLOR, *im sooo sorry spanky, we need to hang out ;) * but uh- oh well since everyone knows anyways, i crashed my car. :(

yeah, i hit the back of someones cadillac, theres didnt even have damage, my car, is nuts. I talked to my dad today, its estimate is 2000. :-/ yeah, sucks. itwas the scariest thing ever though. I am still pretty shocked but yesterday i didnt even move. I got out of the car, and just panicked. And justin stopped and helped me..which was really nice. and so did AARON, he knew everything, he calmed me down. and my mom showed up, and yeah, she was just as shocked as me. Jake Chad and Chris came to make sure i was okay, same with some other ppl, so thanks. but yeah, im really depressed. my parents, are the best though. honestly they are unbelievable.

my neck hurts really bad too

i hate valentines day, HATE IT! i did before, and now this is an even better reason why.

matt- thanks for the daisys and teddy bear=)

Johnny- thanks for the stuff animal, chocolate..

Thanks to whoever decided to buy me a rose and cookie, cause i dont know who you are

i really hate valentines day though:(

going to reed tonight, meeting kevin, hes awesome well from myspace and on the phone and stuff, so well see...

lindsey bleuss is my hero!

haha! i like that song, im listening to it, cause im soo pumped up right now!
im only writing in this cause my best friend said i should, so ha, i am!!

um..we had a snow day tues!! CARSON CITY! i know! crazy stuff, but we did! haha, i had a huge snowball fight with jas, kev and jack! that was fun!!=) our fort was still the best, DIG JAS DIG!! lol!... they threw hard though! lol.. but we got hot chocolate so it didnt matter;0) lol!

uh... nothing really new i guess, im really sick of the computer, and i need to start studying for finals, im done with slacking off! lol...

i just got home well awhile ago, from the game

OMG! i have so much fun, yeah, definitly love cheer! well, the people who do cheer! lol!! =)

Diet Pepsi, and sugar sticks= the best damn rush youll ever get! lol

thats me linds, and grahams things before games!!! mmm mmm hahha!

well, im pissed but pumped up right now, still... haha

this girl challenged me with tumbling today from north valleys!

grrr... i got so mad, i was just like okay, and i wen tout there and did some flips and then she did, and then i did then she did, then i went back out, and trish told me no, lol! so i had to go back and just start cheering!

i get soo pumped up, i hate losing to anything, ask lindsey, shes my motivator!!lol, i busted out a back tuck last time i was with her!! haha

yeah, so im really like tense right now, its crazy!!!

um.. im tired and all that, so im going to bed!

theres my update

ooooo and i love jasmin danielle shelby with my whole heart!=) that is all ! haha